thinking back

when i think of it,
maybe i should have just concentrated on swimming and lifesaving.
initially i wanted to do that,
but i was held back by the post and responsibilities in my hands.

i met up with tpls mates a few days back.
gosh i miss those time
where we train till 9pm and head to 'ang keong' for dinner
and train on sundays at sentosa.

on the other hand,
i don't see myself missing organising events.
but the very close friends i've made made it worthwhile.

WORK

this month's roster is PACKED to the maximum hours.
imagine
CAN
MFM
CAN
CRK
MFM

4 out of 5 flights reporting at 5am+
back to back.

that's why its true when people say that
being a cabin crew, you have to give up on your social life.

I am not someone who would verbalize my thoughts,
so when i don't show care and concern,
it does not mean so.

maybe it is beacause of the way I grew up.
during that period, i appeared to be happy everyday just so that I do not get people asking me 'are you ok?' frequently.
Over time, perhaps I got used to it.

SEP RECURRENT

Safety and Emergency Procedures Recurrent was fun!
Seeing Seng Hock again, his way of confusing us.
First aid, choking, CPR, jumping slides, shouting commands, role play - firefighting etc.

its my last time doing a recurrent.

youths of today

A few days ago, I came across 3 secondary school students challenging each other to a 'One-On-One' fight after school.
It was merely because 1 of them had accidentally brushed against the other 2 while walking.
and this happened at 7AM.

Below is an extract of their heated argument in English.

'Oi! Want to fight ar?'
'Sorry!'
'Sorry for what?! Fight one-on-one if you have got balls la!'
'No balls ar? Which gang you belong to?'
'Scared for what! Come, 2pm at Level 5 carpark'

and the argument goes on. .

What have our youths of today become?
What's with triads and all?
Perhaps because they provide a sense of security,
or rather 'Brotherhood' in layman terms.

But does fighting really solves the problem?

A classic example:

A typical beng walking down the road with his girfriend.
When another guy takes notice of the girfriend,
the typical beng would go
'oi! kua si mi!/see what see! want to fight is it?!'

are you showing off your musculity in front of her or trying to 'protect' her?
what a way to do so.

Its just a cycle.
When ordinary youths observes their peers and
deems that fighting over small matters is 'cool',
they join in to be 'beng wannabes'
Maybe its because they want to protect their weak self from being exposed.
Many a time, I come across 'bengs' who are only putting up a brave, fierce front so that they do not get bullied.

How will they be when they grow up?
Some grow out of it, but there's a minority that do not.

i don't really fancy sms-ing.
maybe its because i have over 3700 msgs in my phone
which slows the sms-ing process down.

CSP course was worth the time. :)
now back to flying,
hopefully putting it to good use.

hongkong morning flight tommorrow.
macau followed by shenzhen.

-we are the one in full control of our emotions, whether we are angry, sad or happy, its ultimately our choice. It's not for others to control-

maybe i've changed a lot since graduation.

CSP

I'm currently attending this WSQ Certified Service Professional (CSP) course
in Tanglin for 5 days.

I've got to squeeze with the morning crowd every morning,
smelling their bad breath, body odour.
but best part is that i can do some shopping after class! :)

today's the second day.
so far it has been interesting,
teaching us to change our mindset and stuff.

Good points:
Don't expect but accept
Use another's ego to your advantage
Passion
Think positive
Only you yourself can put you down
and much more

We're given a topic per day and
we have to present our answers to the class.
Today's question was
'How do you see yourself as a service professional?'

Relationship

I am glad that I am in this relationship now
but i do regret that I do not have a lot of time for her.
I'm flying most of the time,
if not, she's busy in school.

Work

Yesterday's Bangalore flight was one of the best flight.
We didn't sleep throughout the night.
Snack and chat A LOT instead
:)

Shenzhen flight on Monday.

A trip to Causeway Point just now made me
realise how long it has been since i contacted a lot of my friends.
i guess life moves on very fast for me,
be it good or bad.

Is that a sign or what?

New Relationship

A relationship status update in FB
gathered so many likes and comments,
coupled with the phone calls and sms(s)
I received throughout the whole day.

All stalkers!
HAHAHH.


A photo taken before we got together.
:)

FREE TIME

I finally have more free time this week! :)

events/work were all back to back for more than a month!
MTC-BANGKOK TRIP-FO-WEEKZERO
working concurrently during the events.

WEEK ZERO

ENG won regatta champ this year.
Something to be proud of! :)
achieved our dream. its now up to the next batch to bring it another level up.

This Week Zero is the best I had
with mentors.

I was sick throughout Week Zero.

Slept at only 3 or 4 am each day since day 0
to plan for olympiad, the next days' briefing and stuff alone.
thats the best i can do to cover up,
not disturbing anyone (except programmers)
as i didn't do much of pre-planning.

I really want to thank the programmers for all the help rendered!

If you think I didn't do anything for week zero,
let it be.

well,
I didn't really cry on the last day.
I teared only.

and that marks the end of poly. :)

FO ended yesterday.
its means the end of journey for us year 3s
and the start of a wonderful journey for the freshies.

I'm glad i made the choice not make FO a pass.
Went for FO no matter how tired I am after my flights.
Hope the year 1 and 2 GLs learn from us and pass it on.

I could really feel the bond in KETOS
espcially in FOC carnival games.
was really touched that the freshies really chiong all the way.

I didn't cry until debrief.
KETSU cried together for 1 hour.

my FO journey ended well! :)

Now what's left of my journey in TP is
Week Zero Freshmen Orientation.

(i do not know if i will cry this time round,
even if i do, it may just be because its the end of poly life,
not because of the camaraderae, or maybe. . oh well)

went out with huiyi on sunday.
watched 'how to train a dragon'
before going for supper with TingFong and Mat.
its eggs and beer again!

did some last minute shopping with HanChong yesterday.
a few hours before TP Dinner&Dance!
I decided to change my outfit in the end.

Got a flight later.

-connection lost-

Updates

Clubbed for like 5 TIMES in 2 weeks after exams. :X
I'm trying to refrain from alcohol now.
Shall allow my liver to rest.

Went to HongKong for a 4D3N holiday.
it was FUN!
with 10 of my coursemates.
Many things happened.
be it funny or spooky.

Running on the streets at 4am,
taking the 51m freefall ride,
eating dimsum,
having a meal beside hanging raw pigs,
shopping at H&M,
and so much more!

A trip worth while! =)

Head down to ESC's chalet right after arriving from HongKong.
Got updates from Hanchong and TF.
so many things.

went home for a short rest followed by
PERTH FLIGHT!

and BANGALORE FLIGHT the next day!
OMG!

Hongkong 4D3N holiday - ESC Chalet - Perth flight - Bangalore flight - Standby - Saigon/KL flight - Standby - and OFF finally!

Had lunch with HC before Saigon flight at Pizza Hut.
had a long chat.

Met TF and Mat today for dinner.
wanted to get my haircut but sadly, my hairstylist wasn't around.
waited for TF, Huiyi and Mat to knock off before we went for supper.
had beer. OMG! BEER BELLY!

Chennai flight tmr!

-i'm lost it long ago and i cant seem to find it back-

Thoughts

well, some thoughts.

I'm someone who keeps everything to myself.
Rarely sharing my thoughts with others,
even not to those you see me walking with daily.
Its not that I do not trust my friends.
Ever since my parents divorced,
I don't see a need to trouble others with what's troubling me.

I may appear to many as a
'take things as they come'
kind of person,
carefree, positive.

However, after accumulating everything,
all i needed was a spark to initiative.
This was what happened the other day.

Whether I voiced all of my thoughts?
I'm not too sure
cuz there's too many for me to recall all.

-I thought no one reads this blog,
even those i didn't expect, reads it-

Things took a wrong turn here.
I've been blaming myself for setting the direction wrongly.
It was meant to help, but somehow, it didn't work out.
I apologise.
:(

After we talked it out,
Hopefully, the situation would improve next week.
Its the final week to change things.
If not, thats the end.